The new worst thing.

[daphnep]

As I mentioned earlier this week, my Simon's hepatic lipidosis flaired up again this week when I was in New York. Dan got him in to see the vet, I came back a little early, and I've been treating him all week and giving him drugs and talking to our AZ vet and doing the regular forced feedings, etc.

Well, he wasn't getting better. Yesterday morning I took him to the emergency vet when his legs gave out and he turned back into a floppy stuffed animal like he did the last time, only this time they couldn't fix him in time. He had acute liver failure and I chose to let him die a few hours later.

Dan is in Arizona visiting his family, but lxbean came to be with us in the emergency room, and trillian_stars joined me shortly thereafter so I did not have to be alone. I am lucky to have such good friends who care. It is still the crappiest day ever just the same. Ever.

Comments

[m-fallenangel.livejournal.com]

It's no help, I know, but you have my deepest sympathies.

Take comfort in the fact that you gave him a wonderful life filled with love and appreciation. He deserved that, just as you deserved all the joy and laughter having him in your life brought you. You two were well matched, and I'm sorry for your loss.

[lilac-wine.livejournal.com]

there aren't words that can fix the hurt right now but I'll say I'm sorry anyway.

[lds.livejournal.com]

Hey, those of you who are within helping distance of my sissy, I just want to say "thank you" here to you folks for being there when I can't. I love my sissy, I loved Simon, and it makes me sad not to be able to do anything. Thanks for stepping in there for me.

[anne-jumps.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry.

[kimatha.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[silveringridd.livejournal.com]

i am so, so sorry for your loss.

*hugs*

[fizzyland.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[raydon-12.livejournal.com]

((((hugs)))

[radiantsun.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss. (((((hugs))))))

[molinaslim.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry. You did the best you could in a bad situation and gave him all the affection a kitty could want. I'll remember his love-bites fondly.

(((hugs)))

[artemis77.livejournal.com]

I am so very sorry.

[marieoroumania.livejournal.com]

Oh no. I am so sorry.

[cjsmith.livejournal.com]

Oh no! I'm so sorry. You did everything you could, and still lost him, and sometimes that's the most unfair thing in the world. I'm sorry you're hurting, and I'm glad he had a good life with you while he was here on this earth.

[evilegg.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.
Simon was lucky to have you as a mama and Lola as a sistah.
I don't know what his relationship with Dan was like; that can be a little tricky.

[daphnep.livejournal.com]

I love that you make me laugh even when I'm crying.

[ernunnos.livejournal.com]

Aw. Every time I'd visit you, at some point I'd feel needle-sharp claws in my leg, look down and see his big lime-green eyes looking up at me. That was a cat who felt entitled to love & affection, and I don't think he got disappointed.

[shiningfae.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry, hon. My heart goes out to you. *hugs*

[susanjacobson.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your kitty.
I am sure you gave him a very happy life, and he was a very lucky kitty to have had you as a mom.

[plainiac.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry :( You did so much more for him than most pet owners would be willing to do.

[gaminette.livejournal.com]

I know all too well the heartbreak of losing a wee member of the fambly. Brightest blessings on you. He loved and knew he was loved and was so blessed to have you in his life. ♥

[aumtattoo.livejournal.com]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Losing a companion animal is like losing a member of the family. I'm sending you loads of gentle virtual *hugs*

[popcornoblivion.livejournal.com]

My heart is with you. Pets are our family (the part of the family that we get to choose, and therefore like!). Even when we know that they are going to a place with no pain, it's still a difficult loss.

[lxbean.livejournal.com]

I feel like I got to see firsthand how fiercely and gently you loved Simon. He is lucky to have had you as his mom. My mom always told me when my cats died that you do 3 last things for your pet:
*give them all the care you can
*give them a peaceful end when there's nothing more you can do
*grieve their loss

You did all of those things with amazing grace.

[fermi-daza.livejournal.com]

DAMN!! I'm soooo sorry. oxox

[ansley.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I know how hard this is for you. You are very lucky to have those good friends nearby to help get you through this. I wish I'd been as lucky the other night.

[daphnep.livejournal.com]

I've been thinking of you and Ellie all of the time.

You know how you get used to checking for everybody underfoot, to make sure no-one slipped out a door or got closed in a drawer or closet, and then you're used to checking a certain number of times, like counting noses...and now all of a sudden I don't have to count as much.

You know how the house seems so empty with less "checking" to do. You must miss her so much.

[thegarlicbite.livejournal.com]

Oh baby- I'm so sorry- I'm glad you had people with you and weren't alone.

[portia.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, what a horrible, tragic turn of events. My thoughts are with both you and Simon. What devastating news. :o(

[rozae.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry for your loss.

Thank you for giving Simon such a good home.

[wyldemoon.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Sorry to hear about your loss!

[alchmst.livejournal.com]

My Boogie of 16 years, AKA the Lakemaker, died peacefully in my arms while her mommy helped her painlessly into the void. That was late Friday night after I found her unable to arise and she had soiled herself.

I and mine are heartbroken at losing our oldest member of the family, It's hard to write these words out. But, in empathy, be it known that in the field just the other side of the rainbow bridge, Boogie is probably chasing the hell out of Simon and Simon is laying open Boogies nose with a well planted swat.

... sorry, it's the best story I can think up for you and me at the moment.


**shoulder**

[daphnep.livejournal.com]

Unbelievable. What a crappy weekend. I'm sorry.

[cynica.livejournal.com]

Oh man :( I'm so sorry.. You were such a blessing for him.

[trillian-stars.livejournal.com]

You really are an amazing person... and I'm so _relieved_ I was home and not doing something stupid like trout fishing.

What everyone else said is absolutely true; you gave Simon a wonderful home and he was one lucky kitty to have you. xxx

[springheel-jack.livejournal.com]

My condolences.

[zophine.livejournal.com]

I said all I could in your following post. But wanted to add here that I am SO sorry for you and your family. Simon was a big role in all of that. I wish I could take your pain from you, sis...I really do.

[firegrrl.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[nynomi.livejournal.com]

I am so, so sorry. You were a wonderful caretaker to him. He was a wonderful cat to you.

[congogirl.livejournal.com]

Oh NOOO! I just saw your "sorry" entry and came to see what was going on! I am so sorry! Poor little Simon, and poor you, reading this is making me cry.

Still cloudy, with a chance of tears.

[daphnep.livejournal.com]

Yeah. It makes me cry, too.
I love looking at everybody's kitty icons, though. We all get to be loved by our kitties. Thank you.

[realjoy.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. The animals who chose to come into our lives are the very best of friends. Please know that while you are grieving you are not alone in your grief, and when you can rise up a little from the bleakness you will eventually be able to remember the joy you had together.

[daphnep.livejournal.com]

Aww, thank you. That's sweet. Yeah, I agree with whatever poster so gently said "we grieve in proportion to our joy." It's very true, and I'm very grateful for all of my joys. I have so very many.